Minds eye

Sometimes goodbye seems the only was out
If only I could talk and let my feelings shout
I'm sick of feeling so hurt and alone
Even though people are on the end of the phone.

Time and time I hear I'll always be here
Where are they when I'm living in fear.
Fear of the unknown fear of what's to come
My head is all over the place I'm feeling quite numb

Why can't I just let go of my mind
Is it stupid that I am always so kind.
Who can I trust and who can I not
I have become the person friends forgot

So don't miss me when I walk away
Know that you turned your back that day
The day that I needed you and you wasn't there
I now know which people actually care.

7 years already

7 years its been since you said you last goodnight.
I wish that I could hold one last time id hold tight.
You left us with a broken heart and tears upon our face
One day we will be together again in a resting place.
Grandad I miss you so much I want you by my side
This year im making you proud and being Simons bride.
My heart still aches so much for you my angel up above
Today im sending upto you lots of my eternal love.
Forever in our hearts your memory will live on
Even though it's 7 years since we found out you had gone.
The feathers that have fallen remind me your still here
Even if they make me cry and shed a tear.
Im saying goodnight grandad your always in my mind
Were looking after nanna shes the only one of her kind.

No longer fear

Sometimes the ones we love the most are blind when we are hurting
Sometimes we need to get the strength and let them know were hurting
They may well cry but will be there when you need to be help close
No one but them are by your side and who can love you the most.
Dont be afraid of failing because someone always has your back.
They will always be there for you when you feel ready to crack.
Hold your loved one closely they are the reason you are still here.
No longer do you need to fear as your loved one is now near.

Fighting feelings

Im fighting with the feelings I dont want in my head.
I wish that I could loose them but in my mind they are fed.
I hate feeling so low that I don't want to be here.
I wish that I wanted to be with friends and family near.

Instead I want to isolate this thing that iv become.
How can I think like this when I need to be a mum.
In the day time I just sit and stare at the crack up on the wall
At night I lye there crying thinking someday my wall will fall.

I cannot fight these feeling I want to feel better and not sad
There's so much to look forward to that's why I feel so mad.
Why can't I just be happy and be normal like them all
Instead im sat here broken holding on to my brick wall.

Believe in your dreams

I turned this one into a song

Dreaming is what we always do.
Each one of us including you.
Just think of all the little things in life
Believe in what the future bring

Believe in your dreams
Dreams are the things that you have in life
Believe in your dreams
You are closer to them than you believe.

Dreaming of your own life path
What can I do with my life craft
Believe you can do anything
No matter what your life will bring

Someone

Ever get that feeling that your standing all alone
You wish someone was with you to hear you moan and groan.
You wish you could scream and say I really need some help
Instead your over thinking and keeping it to yourself.

Its hard when you feel like this when your feeling so alone
You wish there was someone who would come into your home
Someone who would just listen and not judge in anyway
Someone to help you out when your going astray

That person you can turn to weather its day or night
You can contact them at anytime without causing a fright
Someone who is there for you no matter what you say
Without that person with you there must be another way.

Broken

My body is broken I have no feelings left inside.
I wish the light would appear its not shining bright.
A tiny little dot is all I can see at this time.
I wish that this would switch off this mind of mine.
Im broken and im hurting I dont believe anything is right.
I just want to close my eyes and say goodnight sleep tight.
I hate it when I feel this way I wish it all was good.
But instead im broken once again like I always knew I would.
Theres no way out from this mind set I need to get away.
Before my thoughts take over and I end up going stray.
I cannot keep this wall up any longer than its done
Its falling all around me im broken and im gone

Hidden darkness

Out of the shadows into darkness I will run.
Ill hide away until I see that the better times have come.
Isolated and alone is how I feel most of the time
I sometimes even wish that I wasn't here and with angels of mine.

Ill hide away as long as it takes to become the stronger one.
Until the day im happier I know some time itll come.
Until then ill keep on dreaming as the dream world makes it right.
For now im off to sleep and dreaming in my sleep tonight.

Know im there

Standing in the darkness so cold and all alone.
You took me under your wings and made me feel at home.
Inside I was broken and needed someone to care.
You said to me believe and ill always be there.

You may be broken now but your no longer all alone.
Im here to listen to you when you need to moan and groan.
Ill change your life forever just trust me when I say
Im here by your side no matter what I wont let you go astray

Why at night.

At night I lie in my bed staring at the sky
I drift of into my thinking state and I ask myself why.
Why do you do this why do you lye and over think
Sometimes I even think it would be better to drink.
Drink would numb the thoughts I have the hurt I feel inside
I hate that I have lost so much of which im now denied.
Why aren't you here with me why did you have to go
I wish that I had the answers I really need to know.

Understanding

Understanding

Sometimes you need to understand the way some people live.
Support is all they want so support you should just give.
Hiding away scared of being judged it not how it should be.
Try walk in their shoes for a day then you will see.
They are human no matter what sexuality they are they have emotions to.
So why discriminate against them as one day it could be you.
Imagine falling for someone who made your life worth while.
That person happens to be the same sex but they always make you smile.
It doesn't matter what you think of them they are in love like you and me.
Try talking to them and youll realise and maybe you will see.
Gay straight bi or lesbian they are still human beings to
Just imagine if that person you judge just happened to be you. X

A wave of candle light

Wave of candle light

I join the wave of light tonight because I know a few who should be here.
How they was taken away from us and left us to shed a tear.
Your always in our hearts and that's where youll always be.
Just look down from your angel cloud and from there you will see.
The love that's always here for you and will always stay so close
So tonight I share my candle light for all to see my post.

Riley babe

You are my little churub my smiley little boy
You make me smile and laugh and you bring me joy
Your a happy little brother to the old two
But they love to play with you now that you have grew.
They love it when your playing and even when you sleep
They can be noisy round you or tiptoe on their feet.
You are the baby brother you have so much to do
Always remember that no matter we all love you xxxxx

6 years grandad

Tonight ill look up at the sky
and look for you shining bright
6 years ago you left without goodbye
I think of the call I got that night
I miss you now like I missed you then
I wish so much I could see you again.
Your my angel and my guiding light
So shine bright in the sky tonight.

Miss you so much grandad wish you was here to see your gorgeous great grand children love you forever and always. Until we meet again fly high special angel xxxxxx

Baby angels

Playing in the clouds above but you should be right here
You'll always be remembered so this you shouldn't fear
So close to our broken hearts is where you'll always be
Just make sure you look over us and this you will always see
So open up your angel wings and fly high up in the sky
The hardest thing was loosing you and having to say goodbye x

Mummy

Mummy you mean the world to me
Although I can't yet speak I know you'll see
My loving smile speaks so many words
Even when I have you getting up at the sound of birds
You know all those times that I lay here and coo
That sound I make tell you that I love you 
I smile so you know that I know that you care
Mummy I know that you'll always be there x

Plain old simple me

Standing here looking in the mirror

Staring at what Is ment to be me.

Wishing I was something else

Something else people could see.

I don't know what people see but they say different than I see.

I see a plain old simple me

But other see a pretty me.

I'm told my eyes and smile Are pretty

But is that just people being whitty

Do they really see me in that way

Maybe I will to someday.

I wish I could see what others see

I wish I was the perfect me

Nothing can change what I can see

I just see the plain simple me.

Cruel mind

I wake up in the morning tears are running down my face

Is today going to be different or is it in the same place.

I think of all the things that destroy me to the core

I honestly don't know if I can take it anymore

But on I fight the feelings you left me with

Satisfaction is something that I won't give.

You made me have the memories I really do not need

But in the back of my head the memory has a feed

No black bags can I tie them in the Hurt you caused to me

But on with your life you go and no misery you see

If only you knew the damaged that you have caused

Maybe you would have stopped and maybe even paused.

But no instead you broke me and got into my head

The thought will always be with me especially when I go to bed

I wake up in the morning tears are running down my face

I wish you knew how much you've made me feel a disgrace

Phoebe mays 3rd birth angel day x

10 tiny little fingers

10 tiny little toes

2 beautiful eyes and

a beautiful button nose.

That tiny little smile we never got to see

Sometimes I think how beautiful you could have grow to be

You grew your angel wings sooner than should be

Phoebe may I'm hoping that you sit, up there and see.

Upon your cloud above us but you should really be here.

Today you should be here with us celebrating birthday cheers.

Lil spikey would have loved you his big sister you would be.

Jess and Dan miss you their lil sister angel baby.

As for your mummy and daddy no words can now be said

Nothing can take away the sadness they have met.

Precious lil angel don't worry don't be sad.

Your always in our thoughts through the good times and the bad.

So sleep now precious angel but be there for us each day

But you should be here not there on your special birth angel day x

Forever Angel

Your not here your body has gone
To me you was a number one.
My arms were always open wide
You always was there by my side.

I miss the way you made my day
Now i can only sit and pray
That your angel wings are open wide
And your soul is with me by my side.

I want you here to guide the way
I wish i could find words to say
How much you really mean to me
But maybe in heaven you will see.

My heart is aching cause your not here
i wish you was here to share the cheers
But your alive in my heart and always will be
until the next day that i can see you.