Why at night.

At night I lie in my bed staring at the sky
I drift of into my thinking state and I ask myself why.
Why do you do this why do you lye and over think
Sometimes I even think it would be better to drink.
Drink would numb the thoughts I have the hurt I feel inside
I hate that I have lost so much of which im now denied.
Why aren't you here with me why did you have to go
I wish that I had the answers I really need to know.