Misery

Why do i feel so down,
I really want to cry.
I feel my heart is gonna drown,
I feel the need to die.

My life is in such a mess,
I wish things would just stop.
People keep saying aww bless,
I feel i want to drop.

I know my grave is waiting,
Deep down in the ground.
I'm sick of contemplating,
One day i shall be found.

The real me is out there somewhere,
But where i can not see.
I hope i'm somehwere near here,
It's the real me i wanna see.