Minds eye

Sometimes goodbye seems the only was out
If only I could talk and let my feelings shout
I'm sick of feeling so hurt and alone
Even though people are on the end of the phone.

Time and time I hear I'll always be here
Where are they when I'm living in fear.
Fear of the unknown fear of what's to come
My head is all over the place I'm feeling quite numb

Why can't I just let go of my mind
Is it stupid that I am always so kind.
Who can I trust and who can I not
I have become the person friends forgot

So don't miss me when I walk away
Know that you turned your back that day
The day that I needed you and you wasn't there
I now know which people actually care.

7 years already

7 years its been since you said you last goodnight.
I wish that I could hold one last time id hold tight.
You left us with a broken heart and tears upon our face
One day we will be together again in a resting place.
Grandad I miss you so much I want you by my side
This year im making you proud and being Simons bride.
My heart still aches so much for you my angel up above
Today im sending upto you lots of my eternal love.
Forever in our hearts your memory will live on
Even though it's 7 years since we found out you had gone.
The feathers that have fallen remind me your still here
Even if they make me cry and shed a tear.
Im saying goodnight grandad your always in my mind
Were looking after nanna shes the only one of her kind.

No longer fear

Sometimes the ones we love the most are blind when we are hurting
Sometimes we need to get the strength and let them know were hurting
They may well cry but will be there when you need to be help close
No one but them are by your side and who can love you the most.
Dont be afraid of failing because someone always has your back.
They will always be there for you when you feel ready to crack.
Hold your loved one closely they are the reason you are still here.
No longer do you need to fear as your loved one is now near.

Fighting feelings

Im fighting with the feelings I dont want in my head.
I wish that I could loose them but in my mind they are fed.
I hate feeling so low that I don't want to be here.
I wish that I wanted to be with friends and family near.

Instead I want to isolate this thing that iv become.
How can I think like this when I need to be a mum.
In the day time I just sit and stare at the crack up on the wall
At night I lye there crying thinking someday my wall will fall.

I cannot fight these feeling I want to feel better and not sad
There's so much to look forward to that's why I feel so mad.
Why can't I just be happy and be normal like them all
Instead im sat here broken holding on to my brick wall.

Believe in your dreams

I turned this one into a song

Dreaming is what we always do.
Each one of us including you.
Just think of all the little things in life
Believe in what the future bring

Believe in your dreams
Dreams are the things that you have in life
Believe in your dreams
You are closer to them than you believe.

Dreaming of your own life path
What can I do with my life craft
Believe you can do anything
No matter what your life will bring

Someone

Ever get that feeling that your standing all alone
You wish someone was with you to hear you moan and groan.
You wish you could scream and say I really need some help
Instead your over thinking and keeping it to yourself.

Its hard when you feel like this when your feeling so alone
You wish there was someone who would come into your home
Someone who would just listen and not judge in anyway
Someone to help you out when your going astray

That person you can turn to weather its day or night
You can contact them at anytime without causing a fright
Someone who is there for you no matter what you say
Without that person with you there must be another way.

Broken

My body is broken I have no feelings left inside.
I wish the light would appear its not shining bright.
A tiny little dot is all I can see at this time.
I wish that this would switch off this mind of mine.
Im broken and im hurting I dont believe anything is right.
I just want to close my eyes and say goodnight sleep tight.
I hate it when I feel this way I wish it all was good.
But instead im broken once again like I always knew I would.
Theres no way out from this mind set I need to get away.
Before my thoughts take over and I end up going stray.
I cannot keep this wall up any longer than its done
Its falling all around me im broken and im gone

Hidden darkness

Out of the shadows into darkness I will run.
Ill hide away until I see that the better times have come.
Isolated and alone is how I feel most of the time
I sometimes even wish that I wasn't here and with angels of mine.

Ill hide away as long as it takes to become the stronger one.
Until the day im happier I know some time itll come.
Until then ill keep on dreaming as the dream world makes it right.
For now im off to sleep and dreaming in my sleep tonight.

Know im there

Standing in the darkness so cold and all alone.
You took me under your wings and made me feel at home.
Inside I was broken and needed someone to care.
You said to me believe and ill always be there.

You may be broken now but your no longer all alone.
Im here to listen to you when you need to moan and groan.
Ill change your life forever just trust me when I say
Im here by your side no matter what I wont let you go astray

Why at night.

At night I lie in my bed staring at the sky
I drift of into my thinking state and I ask myself why.
Why do you do this why do you lye and over think
Sometimes I even think it would be better to drink.
Drink would numb the thoughts I have the hurt I feel inside
I hate that I have lost so much of which im now denied.
Why aren't you here with me why did you have to go
I wish that I had the answers I really need to know.

Understanding

Understanding

Sometimes you need to understand the way some people live.
Support is all they want so support you should just give.
Hiding away scared of being judged it not how it should be.
Try walk in their shoes for a day then you will see.
They are human no matter what sexuality they are they have emotions to.
So why discriminate against them as one day it could be you.
Imagine falling for someone who made your life worth while.
That person happens to be the same sex but they always make you smile.
It doesn't matter what you think of them they are in love like you and me.
Try talking to them and youll realise and maybe you will see.
Gay straight bi or lesbian they are still human beings to
Just imagine if that person you judge just happened to be you. X